Conundrum Solved

"Am back with a vengeance !! Of course its super-normal... but i guess this a perennial conundrum for me...."
Someone asked me that how did i manage to motivate myself for all the 5 years in coll and beyond. My answer was the line quoted in italics....and the lady was flabbergasted. She obviously expected some enceinte words of wisdom but i guess the retort caught her unawares. With the retort, went my one and only chance to cast the enchanting spell on her.... something i have meticulously exemplified over the past. The incident initiated a chain of memories in retrospection, i narrowed down to two dictates

• The criticism you receive is the variable which determines your exponential growth
• Simplicity and not honesty; gives me most satisfaction

The motivation levels and the passion driving individual behaviours change with time and the previous month has enforced a plethora of alterations in my conduct. Most importantly, i have received a convincing answer from Dhawal which makes life easier for me. I now fully comprehend, the fact that I was controversial due to my stand against all odds.

As someone rightly said - " Sanju! you manage to cast an indelible impression, but then people start looking upto you ... they get impressed by your qualities ... but seldom end up liking your individuality" So NEAR... yet so FAR !!!