Happy Birthday dude.... Have a blast.
Probably the sole one liner which i trance forward as birthday wishes to one and all. So, the locution needs to common to both thy neighbour and thyselves.
Probably this approaching birthday made me wonder,why and how on earth does this day create so much excitement among the recipients???? a trait commonly or infact outrightly, observed in all of the anthropological genres (girls majorly) i have befriended. Is this really the day when you seat yourselves at the throne of felicity and expect others to pamper you, shower yourself with goodies and wishes alike??? Is this day deservant of the pompousness and grandiloquence which you ascribe it to???? Is this the only justified occasion to corroborate that you are indeed one special creation????
I must admit that i have been no exception to these flavouring when i was young. The start of December used to elevate me to the pinnacle of a virtual Happy Mountain which then chute with exponential speed as soon as the day was over. Being the shortest day of the year (22nd December) made only matters worse for me. I reminisce with acute nostalgia the days when my friends in colony used to come over during the party, and i stationed myself at the entrance of my house allowing only those with a gift. And then as i evolved/matured, (a polite way of saying that i degraded) i used to treat my friends in school in a disc/pub where everyone lost his senses as we only went to Oxygen or Delhi Devils (liquor free). (I am still deprived of the wonderful blessing on manking as concieved by smokers and alcoholics). However, contentment and propitiation are two distant attributes which i have always aimed to accomplish, but, they always seemed a further mile away with every passing birthday.
Last year, i had the blessed opportunity to spend my first birthday at college. I call the opportunity blessed not because i had my coterie around, but because i could use the day towards some authentically genuine service, which i guess, everyone is expected to undertake on days which are special to him. Its been quite a few years since i have been donation flour to the blind school near my house during the birthdays of people special in my life. However, last year after my major examination, i sped to Madhav orphange in Gwalior where i distributed apples and oranges to the kids. It was then that the feeling of contentment ebbed to the brim. Those smiles, those verbalisms, those countenance and those gratitudes enlightened me beyond expressions, beyond descriptions. Since i had a party planned back in coll, i had rush back and i was very repentant that i was compromising the real celebration for a societal celebration which neither redeems nor restores any unfeigned archetypes.
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I must realise that this year is a benchmark, one which marks a transition from an average college kid to an untested corporate resource. I have some very important goals for the future and i must pledge to pursue them with all sincerity and dedication. I must pay due cognisance to the fact that there will be distractions galore, both warranted and unwarranted. However, i must pervade through them with undeterred motivation. Also i must do away with the rashness which has been my perennial doom speller in the past. Just another moment of silence will help me silence the sceptical negativism.
Cheers to yet another completion of a successful year. May you march with austerity towards being a subservient force for your parents and an assertive force for the posterity.
Friday, December 21, 2007
Sunday, December 02, 2007
Turbulating Conundrum
Am in a majestic fix of vibrant sorts....
Committed the worst blunder of my life on Nov 18, but what set ME apart was that I was actually able to pull myself out of the gloom very early, to my surprise. Many would disagree, but the preparation certainly instilled within me an ATTITUDE. The one that i always lacked. I always seemed to cog my mind with those nebulous thoughts of negativities. I must admit that i am very lucky to be actually what i have positioned myself at Present, as. I have strong reservations about my Intelligent and emotional quotients. Though, trough of failure have been cyclical, they have been ephemeral . But i always seemed to brood over those, disturb myself to the heck and always felt like running towards oblivion. What set me apart this time around and hopefully would , in future, is the pace at which i pulled out myself from the web- the ever inciting web of gloom, misfortune, insecurity and forged thoughts.
The insouciance is nothing but serendipity but I enjoyed it to the hilt. It added a certain flavour to my outlook of looking at Nature for a second and forgetting/forgiving ALL. Though i must confess that the traits of a human do not allow me to sustain my nonchalance for long, and the peers (both internal and external) play their derogatory roles, I have begun to realise that the key to calmness and success lies in speedy extrication from the excoriating events.
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What if?????????????
You are a part of a menage where every alternate generations have mute and dumb childeren. Constrasting this misfortune is perhaps the fact that the girls in the lineage are excessively gorgeous, but alas no one prefers to marry them as the children born to them are definintive to be dumb and mute, or atleast.... have been so... for many generations.
A dumb and mute grandma/ grandpa, hale and hearty (not sure!!!) mom and dad, and once again the dumb and mute children. The conversation in their house was through various signals made using the face and the hands.
If you saw that for once, would you ever dare to bother others with your thrawting frustrations.
Not much to be written but certainly more to the mind.
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Selfless service to primarily one's parents and then the society are the key dictates towards sure shot happiness. However, the word "selfless" is the pons asinorum when it comes to an ambitioius mix of pride, arrogance and materialism like me. However, i just sincerely hope that I am able to support my parents without getting into this unwanted race of unending material conquest. Am happy with th realisation, but sustaining and reminding myself of the sole reason of my toils would be my test.
Wish i were able to share with you .... all my propitious incidents and turbulations alike.
But somewhere down the aisle... get tired of the hypocricies i dislike.
I lift myself all over again.... striving to rejuvenate myself to my pristing self.
Committed the worst blunder of my life on Nov 18, but what set ME apart was that I was actually able to pull myself out of the gloom very early, to my surprise. Many would disagree, but the preparation certainly instilled within me an ATTITUDE. The one that i always lacked. I always seemed to cog my mind with those nebulous thoughts of negativities. I must admit that i am very lucky to be actually what i have positioned myself at Present, as. I have strong reservations about my Intelligent and emotional quotients. Though, trough of failure have been cyclical, they have been ephemeral . But i always seemed to brood over those, disturb myself to the heck and always felt like running towards oblivion. What set me apart this time around and hopefully would , in future, is the pace at which i pulled out myself from the web- the ever inciting web of gloom, misfortune, insecurity and forged thoughts.
The insouciance is nothing but serendipity but I enjoyed it to the hilt. It added a certain flavour to my outlook of looking at Nature for a second and forgetting/forgiving ALL. Though i must confess that the traits of a human do not allow me to sustain my nonchalance for long, and the peers (both internal and external) play their derogatory roles, I have begun to realise that the key to calmness and success lies in speedy extrication from the excoriating events.
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What if?????????????
You are a part of a menage where every alternate generations have mute and dumb childeren. Constrasting this misfortune is perhaps the fact that the girls in the lineage are excessively gorgeous, but alas no one prefers to marry them as the children born to them are definintive to be dumb and mute, or atleast.... have been so... for many generations.
A dumb and mute grandma/ grandpa, hale and hearty (not sure!!!) mom and dad, and once again the dumb and mute children. The conversation in their house was through various signals made using the face and the hands.
If you saw that for once, would you ever dare to bother others with your thrawting frustrations.
Not much to be written but certainly more to the mind.
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Selfless service to primarily one's parents and then the society are the key dictates towards sure shot happiness. However, the word "selfless" is the pons asinorum when it comes to an ambitioius mix of pride, arrogance and materialism like me. However, i just sincerely hope that I am able to support my parents without getting into this unwanted race of unending material conquest. Am happy with th realisation, but sustaining and reminding myself of the sole reason of my toils would be my test.
Wish i were able to share with you .... all my propitious incidents and turbulations alike.
But somewhere down the aisle... get tired of the hypocricies i dislike.
I lift myself all over again.... striving to rejuvenate myself to my pristing self.
Sunday, September 16, 2007
Resuscitating Clairvoyance
Life has been a ‘penance’ …. Of late..!!!!!!
Strict adherence to timings with occasional discrepancies has been the hallmark of the past fortnight. Also the four point programme – something similar to the common minimum programme of the UPA, the only difference being the accentuation of the walk rather than the talk. But, somehow the one doing with @#%$ seems elusive. I feel that if I improve upon this aspect, it will be nothing but a cakewalk on frictionless lanceolate promontory.
Got the taste of my first ninety around percentiles and 200 odd ranks, in the past week. In no way do I feel confident or assured of similar performances in the future, though it is only improving. I have always believed that one needs to peak at the right opportune time, the propitious time when nothing can stall your ascent. Also the fact that the peak is best when closest to the end rather than a period interspersing the final days and initial hours. Overconfidence is something which comes to me naturally even if I achieve the smallest of achievements. But this time I am pretty conscious and cognizant of my approach towards the goal. There is only a diaphanous veneer which bifurcates the egotism with pragmatism.
Praying for all that my Mom wanted me to… Strange that I give in my spiritual quotient on the blog world. Actually it keeps me posted of my authentic prayers and the ones inciting greed, impatience etc etc.
“The way she makes me feel………………..
She is both my sTreNgtH and Achilles heel”
Strict adherence to timings with occasional discrepancies has been the hallmark of the past fortnight. Also the four point programme – something similar to the common minimum programme of the UPA, the only difference being the accentuation of the walk rather than the talk. But, somehow the one doing with @#%$ seems elusive. I feel that if I improve upon this aspect, it will be nothing but a cakewalk on frictionless lanceolate promontory.
Got the taste of my first ninety around percentiles and 200 odd ranks, in the past week. In no way do I feel confident or assured of similar performances in the future, though it is only improving. I have always believed that one needs to peak at the right opportune time, the propitious time when nothing can stall your ascent. Also the fact that the peak is best when closest to the end rather than a period interspersing the final days and initial hours. Overconfidence is something which comes to me naturally even if I achieve the smallest of achievements. But this time I am pretty conscious and cognizant of my approach towards the goal. There is only a diaphanous veneer which bifurcates the egotism with pragmatism.
Praying for all that my Mom wanted me to… Strange that I give in my spiritual quotient on the blog world. Actually it keeps me posted of my authentic prayers and the ones inciting greed, impatience etc etc.
“The way she makes me feel………………..
She is both my sTreNgtH and Achilles heel”
Wednesday, August 15, 2007
Great news !!! Mummy, Daddy, Sathyan........etc etc
Finally got placed… One seems to wait with an indefinite impatience for this day of one’s life @ college \ institute. I have this surge of conviction flowing through my stratums all over again. Contrary to this, the feeling sank in no time, the result did come sweet but it was not without its share of blemishes. I just could not get a hang of how things were cropping in the period interspersing my first round and HR interview. I did get the HR thinking though !!!!! All the drums of African safari about ethics being an imperative part of their core value proposition seemed to fall like nine pins when she replied to my skepticism.
However, all said and done, I was very happy to find my relatives relishing the news of the still very plump and young Sanjeev (in their memories) casting his first step as a neophyte into the world of corporatism. The second thing which put me off was the ITC imbroglio and I felt that I needed to undertake a seminal effort in helping my mates getting placed. Satyam did make things easier to an extent, but still, with some guys remaining, celebration continues to deceive.
Now, I should start preparing myself for the artistic test of giving the mocks as it is not only subject expertise which counts. Not much to write for now, but definitely sullen times and gloomy disguises need to put to the shore, and lots of learning , pondering and strategizing needs to be done.
Cheers………………
However, all said and done, I was very happy to find my relatives relishing the news of the still very plump and young Sanjeev (in their memories) casting his first step as a neophyte into the world of corporatism. The second thing which put me off was the ITC imbroglio and I felt that I needed to undertake a seminal effort in helping my mates getting placed. Satyam did make things easier to an extent, but still, with some guys remaining, celebration continues to deceive.
Now, I should start preparing myself for the artistic test of giving the mocks as it is not only subject expertise which counts. Not much to write for now, but definitely sullen times and gloomy disguises need to put to the shore, and lots of learning , pondering and strategizing needs to be done.
Cheers………………
Thursday, July 19, 2007
BeToKeNeD__bILLetS
Long time… No see…..
Just to explicate in brief….
I have been undergoing my summer Internship at Pre-Sales Team, Documentum, ECM 1 Practice, Satyam Computer Services Limited, Chennai.
I have been very conspicuous of my absence in office. I am kind of welcomed with sardonic smiles every single time I move over to my seat besides Harsh sir and Vipul sir. The Pre Sales team is the only riddance when it comes to an invigorating work place. The remnants within the campus have that lackluster guise which can get onto one’s patience. However, in whatever minimal time I swank spent in office, it has been a mixed breed of tenacious works and buoyant breaks. However, I think I have assimilated enough to impose a swank bio-data. The training in Documentum and the Proof of Concept aligning the needs of the Publishing Domain with the Marklogic Content Server seem to be the only value addition. The analysis and design of the Reusable Templates have been derisory. Nonetheless, they find a place in my CV as I believe that I can mildew or mask the unadulterated work to an appreciable level of granularity.
Its only final presentation that beckons and I find myself folding the pages of my internship.
A few days later……………..
However, these three months have been more of a period of austerity. I have been closely observing the key tenets of professional life. In the end after feeling my completion certificate, I retort with all the abuses I know….. all the Hindi ones (been long since I used one), all the Tamil ones and the English ones came flowing too…. Following suit
Am not being complacent, but it is an innate disposition NOW, that I stand a good chance to perform but then, what about the perforce scratch your back strategists??? Darwin should try and reassess his theory. In the world of IT, it’s the one who is the best when it comes to scratching, who survives, certainly not the FiTtesT.
Now describing the parallel world of coquettes…..
Saw her only to believe that ……… at first sight is a certainty. I have been associated with all types of gimcracks, but its ironical how the shock of my life came in this desert city of Chennai (don’t see pink much… except on Hutch billboards). No !!!!!! I am sure it’s not a mirage.
Still have that air on sanctity surrounding me and will bookmark that moment as one of the few sacrosanct ones. Fingers tremble as I type these words as I am well aware that there may never be such a moment in my life, ever again.
“How can I resist you when I feel SO close to my heart”
Anyways, I come back to my world of stark veracity. Have never been so weak to give myself away and that too on a public domain, but ALAS….I Have not been able to rant for long. Next in the cavalcade is the TCS enigma and finally the mother of all… the common aptitude test. Don’t want to give away this time around as I have always done in entrance examinations in the past. But the failures of the past do continue to haunt me.
As for the internship is concerned, I feel my decision to quit Fuhzen and stay back in the country has been one of my best EveR. Today I feel I am more richer, than what I could have been had I accepted that $1600 covenant.
Even if I am to map it with the tangibility of dollars, a 1000$ training in Documentum, all for free, courtesy Satyam has been the announcement. Add to this, the priceless stay @ HOME with mom and Anirudh is luxury personified. The visit we paid to the numerous relatives during the past two months have supercharged my social habituation. Today I palpate myself only to find myself devoid of the various negativities which one inculcates when, away from home.
Karnataka, AP, Kerala, Sri Lanka, Cambodia have all been great…!!!
I am feeling the cutaneous senses ….. surpassing even the price-less moments which Master Card propagates.
God Bless One and All (Conclusions voiced by my rejuvenated spiritual quotient.)
Just to explicate in brief….
I have been undergoing my summer Internship at Pre-Sales Team, Documentum, ECM 1 Practice, Satyam Computer Services Limited, Chennai.
I have been very conspicuous of my absence in office. I am kind of welcomed with sardonic smiles every single time I move over to my seat besides Harsh sir and Vipul sir. The Pre Sales team is the only riddance when it comes to an invigorating work place. The remnants within the campus have that lackluster guise which can get onto one’s patience. However, in whatever minimal time I swank spent in office, it has been a mixed breed of tenacious works and buoyant breaks. However, I think I have assimilated enough to impose a swank bio-data. The training in Documentum and the Proof of Concept aligning the needs of the Publishing Domain with the Marklogic Content Server seem to be the only value addition. The analysis and design of the Reusable Templates have been derisory. Nonetheless, they find a place in my CV as I believe that I can mildew or mask the unadulterated work to an appreciable level of granularity.
Its only final presentation that beckons and I find myself folding the pages of my internship.
A few days later……………..
However, these three months have been more of a period of austerity. I have been closely observing the key tenets of professional life. In the end after feeling my completion certificate, I retort with all the abuses I know….. all the Hindi ones (been long since I used one), all the Tamil ones and the English ones came flowing too…. Following suit
Am not being complacent, but it is an innate disposition NOW, that I stand a good chance to perform but then, what about the perforce scratch your back strategists??? Darwin should try and reassess his theory. In the world of IT, it’s the one who is the best when it comes to scratching, who survives, certainly not the FiTtesT.
Now describing the parallel world of coquettes…..
Saw her only to believe that ……… at first sight is a certainty. I have been associated with all types of gimcracks, but its ironical how the shock of my life came in this desert city of Chennai (don’t see pink much… except on Hutch billboards). No !!!!!! I am sure it’s not a mirage.
Still have that air on sanctity surrounding me and will bookmark that moment as one of the few sacrosanct ones. Fingers tremble as I type these words as I am well aware that there may never be such a moment in my life, ever again.
“How can I resist you when I feel SO close to my heart”
Anyways, I come back to my world of stark veracity. Have never been so weak to give myself away and that too on a public domain, but ALAS….I Have not been able to rant for long. Next in the cavalcade is the TCS enigma and finally the mother of all… the common aptitude test. Don’t want to give away this time around as I have always done in entrance examinations in the past. But the failures of the past do continue to haunt me.
As for the internship is concerned, I feel my decision to quit Fuhzen and stay back in the country has been one of my best EveR. Today I feel I am more richer, than what I could have been had I accepted that $1600 covenant.
Even if I am to map it with the tangibility of dollars, a 1000$ training in Documentum, all for free, courtesy Satyam has been the announcement. Add to this, the priceless stay @ HOME with mom and Anirudh is luxury personified. The visit we paid to the numerous relatives during the past two months have supercharged my social habituation. Today I palpate myself only to find myself devoid of the various negativities which one inculcates when, away from home.
Karnataka, AP, Kerala, Sri Lanka, Cambodia have all been great…!!!
I am feeling the cutaneous senses ….. surpassing even the price-less moments which Master Card propagates.
God Bless One and All (Conclusions voiced by my rejuvenated spiritual quotient.)
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