The CHANGE which seems Elusive

No matter how much i relent, my back is certainly to the wall. The only good thing here is that things can only move forward from here.... the advance needs to be well thought-out though.

Its been quite some time and i have been vexed by a lot of comments from my coterie. I must confess that it is all in good spirits and senses of the world. However, it is my strong feeling that one's advice or counsel to the other should be more empathy oriented and not on the basis of self potency. Swati has this charming way of coming out of ignominious situations and stay cheerful eternally, but her advice to me to refurbish the excitement and exuberance of the past is simply not palatable at this point of time. Pankaj may have one of the most 'lechatelierite like' aim in life, but he cannot expect me to house similar clarities. Vivek has a wonderfu appetite for risk-taking, but i am incompetent to buy his suggested methodology in order to come out of my present struggle. Ruchika may have a penchant and dominance towards clearing actuarial exams but her counsel and judgement about me not doing enough for CAT is not concilliable.

I do not mean that your words may mean any condescension or disdain.... but my point lies in the fact that i have my own set of strengths and the current challenges are not my cup of tea. I am ready to struggle and rigour my way but not at the cost of my fervor. For instance, give me a topic and seek a presentation or a GD, i will surely not disappoint you... but expecting me to be cheerful or competent or risk-centrical or visionary may be too much of an asking considering the plethora of other qualities that can be sought.

I think the present stage demands stoicism and nonchalance and i may have my task cut out over the next six months.

PS: I know none of you will reply to this, but we can definitely take it up over the call.

The 'END' marks a new 'BEGINNING'

My dad finally retires and addresses adios to the organisation which consecrated his identity to him..... something which i have used often to veil my 'mistakes'. Its the end of an era for my Dad who symbolised a 'judicious mix of honesty, integrity, discipline and vibrancy' to me. His answer to my question of what he does in office still reverberate in my ears. I was in class 3 then, and he told me that he reads newspapers in office. And i felt ashamed to reveal it to my friends then. Its something which i still cannot reveal in public domain....... reasons may be personal, may also be secretive to an extent.

Never in my past, have i heard my dad criticise the Govt. He opined that contextualizing a system meant to usurp the worriments of a populous nation is no mean task and it called for compromises and alterations at various levels of granularity. No matter how much we criticise the Government of India, emergence and sustenance of a system as behemoth as this is commendable. We have innumerable trepidations regarding the functioning and future of our machinery and we often stretch ourselves in pillorying this structure. The only shining billets for us in this dark lantern of magnanimous proportions are our parents who have reaped the benefits of complying with this system and nurtured us with essential wherewithal.Privatisation has infused best-practices and benchmarks but they do not take anything away from the goverrnment which fructified development when the country belonged to 'God men and Snake charmers'.

No wonder why we get so may request regarding benchmarks and best practices in GRCC.

ALL THE VERY BEST DAD.... I KNOW THE ONUS IS ON SATHYAN AND I TO TAKE IT FORWARD FROM HERE..... WE'LL DO OUR BEST!!!