Conundrum Solved

"Am back with a vengeance !! Of course its super-normal... but i guess this a perennial conundrum for me...."
Someone asked me that how did i manage to motivate myself for all the 5 years in coll and beyond. My answer was the line quoted in italics....and the lady was flabbergasted. She obviously expected some enceinte words of wisdom but i guess the retort caught her unawares. With the retort, went my one and only chance to cast the enchanting spell on her.... something i have meticulously exemplified over the past. The incident initiated a chain of memories in retrospection, i narrowed down to two dictates

• The criticism you receive is the variable which determines your exponential growth
• Simplicity and not honesty; gives me most satisfaction

The motivation levels and the passion driving individual behaviours change with time and the previous month has enforced a plethora of alterations in my conduct. Most importantly, i have received a convincing answer from Dhawal which makes life easier for me. I now fully comprehend, the fact that I was controversial due to my stand against all odds.

As someone rightly said - " Sanju! you manage to cast an indelible impression, but then people start looking upto you ... they get impressed by your qualities ... but seldom end up liking your individuality" So NEAR... yet so FAR !!!

Immanence versus Transcendence

Objectivising the subjectivities is one major challenge subsisting in the ecosystem called ‘life’. We have numerous ideas, opinions, sentiments which are marked by perspicuity and vagary. We often talk about injecting value and efficiency within various functions in life. We try and play voguish in our endeavour to project ourselves as the ‘one critical creation’ whose hallmark is prudence and austerity. The ironical part in the last statement is the contradiction showcased by a vogue and an austere.

The world is exhibiting its growing inacceptance towards exaggerated words of promise and wisdom. What is increasingly being sought is ‘quantification of the intangibles’. This makes much more sense considering the fact that we have orbited to a juncture where sheer numbers characterise future projections instead of an intangible roadmap. Strategy is increasingly jelled with execution and there is a callous indifference towards the non-performers. This is what you call ‘brutality’ and the current financial turmoil will instigate a new paradigm where articulations will necessarily need to be coherent with mensuration.

I feel this is the right time for me to inculcate an orientation which will reinforce my positioning in the new world order. Some of the pivotal learning areas will be apposite usage of vocabulary, enhancement of networking skills, amelioration of time management & writing skills and diminution of rigid expectations. Abstractions apart, I need to expedite the Point of View on Value Added Services and contrive a set of incremental strategies so that I give the exam when I am at my peak. It is time to walk the talk.

‘CAPTIAL MARKETS WITHOUT LOSSES IS LIKE CHRISTIANITY WITHOUT HELL’ – Warren Buffet

The CHANGE which seems Elusive

No matter how much i relent, my back is certainly to the wall. The only good thing here is that things can only move forward from here.... the advance needs to be well thought-out though.

Its been quite some time and i have been vexed by a lot of comments from my coterie. I must confess that it is all in good spirits and senses of the world. However, it is my strong feeling that one's advice or counsel to the other should be more empathy oriented and not on the basis of self potency. Swati has this charming way of coming out of ignominious situations and stay cheerful eternally, but her advice to me to refurbish the excitement and exuberance of the past is simply not palatable at this point of time. Pankaj may have one of the most 'lechatelierite like' aim in life, but he cannot expect me to house similar clarities. Vivek has a wonderfu appetite for risk-taking, but i am incompetent to buy his suggested methodology in order to come out of my present struggle. Ruchika may have a penchant and dominance towards clearing actuarial exams but her counsel and judgement about me not doing enough for CAT is not concilliable.

I do not mean that your words may mean any condescension or disdain.... but my point lies in the fact that i have my own set of strengths and the current challenges are not my cup of tea. I am ready to struggle and rigour my way but not at the cost of my fervor. For instance, give me a topic and seek a presentation or a GD, i will surely not disappoint you... but expecting me to be cheerful or competent or risk-centrical or visionary may be too much of an asking considering the plethora of other qualities that can be sought.

I think the present stage demands stoicism and nonchalance and i may have my task cut out over the next six months.

PS: I know none of you will reply to this, but we can definitely take it up over the call.

The 'END' marks a new 'BEGINNING'

My dad finally retires and addresses adios to the organisation which consecrated his identity to him..... something which i have used often to veil my 'mistakes'. Its the end of an era for my Dad who symbolised a 'judicious mix of honesty, integrity, discipline and vibrancy' to me. His answer to my question of what he does in office still reverberate in my ears. I was in class 3 then, and he told me that he reads newspapers in office. And i felt ashamed to reveal it to my friends then. Its something which i still cannot reveal in public domain....... reasons may be personal, may also be secretive to an extent.

Never in my past, have i heard my dad criticise the Govt. He opined that contextualizing a system meant to usurp the worriments of a populous nation is no mean task and it called for compromises and alterations at various levels of granularity. No matter how much we criticise the Government of India, emergence and sustenance of a system as behemoth as this is commendable. We have innumerable trepidations regarding the functioning and future of our machinery and we often stretch ourselves in pillorying this structure. The only shining billets for us in this dark lantern of magnanimous proportions are our parents who have reaped the benefits of complying with this system and nurtured us with essential wherewithal.Privatisation has infused best-practices and benchmarks but they do not take anything away from the goverrnment which fructified development when the country belonged to 'God men and Snake charmers'.

No wonder why we get so may request regarding benchmarks and best practices in GRCC.

ALL THE VERY BEST DAD.... I KNOW THE ONUS IS ON SATHYAN AND I TO TAKE IT FORWARD FROM HERE..... WE'LL DO OUR BEST!!!

Dispossessions / Evictions / Confessions

There has been an evident disconnect between whatever i do and whatever i aspire to accomplish, whatever i utter and whatever i may want to state, whatever i see and whatever i may want to sight, whatever i think and whatever i may want to concieve or percieve. Perhaps the difference lies in magnanimity of the replacement word- say accomplishing for doing, stating for uttering so on and so forth.

No matter what the impressions, finesse in usage and conduct does play a pivotal role in projecting yourself. However, I have started to feel that i may be over-selling myself as an individual. People have started taking note of they activities and started conditioning their cells towards accepting me as a person who may not have any complaints from life whatsoever. Their attitude towards me seems to reflect their inconvenience in accepting myself as one without worriments against them amidst perturbations galore. However, as Dhruv correctly pointed out that 'Its is the moments which you think bring out the man in you, which contribute the least in shaping you', similarly, my attempts to over-sell are not fruits borne out of self-concious efforts but my generic demeanor. I wonder why people feel that we in Bangalore have a cake-walk while they trudge spines. This comparison has resulted in me feigning ignominy in order to glue the unwanted fissures.

On a different scale, I have started to believe that one should be forward-looking as that fills within you a sense of excitement towards the unknown. Past memories must be given their merited piazzas and nothing more for they are more of a learning curve which you should be referring to in your quest towards realising the epitome. So in simple jargon- Value your past only as an indicator but value your future as a craved possession.

The experiment today has Anto on his heels until he read that the World continues to be SAFE !!! And i have started to appreciate vertiable flow of thoughts and structuring as i write my Point of View on the Telecom Industry.

"Immense Value Add" as Dhawal would put it..... in order to impress his supervisor

'Life is a melodrama, try interspersing it with intimacy and benevolence'

Thank You...!!!

I always feel i have been the most ungrateful wretch on earth. Life has been very kind to me, yet i have managed to obliviate the benevolent memories and persisted with the malevolent ones.
Sometimes this is what can be termed as 'pons - asinorum' (I guess Johney is gonna blast me for using this word too often... but somehow i seem to attach this to myself on various counts)

The Freud test revealed Family, Love-life, Friends, Knowledge and Money in the decreasing order of my priorities.

So let me thank Monu C. Varghese, Dione Kurian, Shincy Elsa Philip, Puneet Kamboj, Guarav Negi, Bharat Panwar, Chetali Kapoor, Shriram Mani,Rachita Mohan, Pankaj Pandey, Gaurav Kumar, Viplav Sinha, Rahul, Chetan Thakur, Vivek Sharma, Rocky Rajput, Joydeep Biswas, Rajagopal, Ritesh Garg, Vignesh, Varun Arora, Ajo Abraham, Ruchi Singh, Shilpi Bharadwaj, Nishant Upadhyay and Swati Sharma.

Some of my DCE mnates namely Nigar Khan, Svetlana Dimitrov, Sachin Pant, Gaurav Chabbaria, Neha Garg, Vikram Sisodia and Maria Suzanne.

Over to the affable IIITM - Ashutosh Uniyal, Marut Chaudhary, N. Johney, Nikhil Jha, Sanjay Saini, Manish Chauhan, Alok Kumar, Jayant Singh, Akshay Anand, Dhruv Joshi, Shishir Chandrol, Ankur Khandelwal, Chinna Reddy, Yatendra Singhal, Ravi Garg, Santosh Kumar Singh, Aditya Singh Kushwah, Ankit Verma, Ayush Bhatt, Steven Mudda, Naveen Aksolia, Amrapali Sukhdeve, Sandeep, Manjari Sheela, Ranjeet Arya and Ruchika Gupta.

And now to the Bangalore gang- Dhawal (the decision maker), Anubha Gumastha, Suman Kansotiya, Annie Shen, Mirra and expanding.... (of course Marut, Joshi and Paaji are not discounted)

Well thanks for reading this piece of junk... i was wondering as to why friends feature third in my list of priorities within the Freudian test. I also managed to recollect most of the surnames. Please pardon me if i discounted your name in the flow.... it has been a free flowing thanks giving blog.

I would like to meet all of You atleast once more in future !!!! Adios

The NEXT generation Model

"The price we pay for advance in civilisation is loss of happiness"- wrote Sigmund Freud. Of course he wrote many more interesting things regarding promiscuous topics, but this statement reinforces his high-handedness.
Does this mean pleasure and progress don't go together??? It seems absurd considering that we've all reaped the benefits of technology which has generally upped the quality of our lives. A wheel made things easier, agriculture alienated foraging, antibiotics alleviated suffering, electronics has revolutionised the communication industry. So, how can such palpable gains result in loss of happiness???

Actually, Freud talks about a totally different kind of happiness which is often miscontrued the same way as his other pennings are. This unhappiness is a by-product of technological and societal advancement which results in unreasonable and often nefarious demands which is unmatched by the supply. Hence, the discontent and consequently the evident unhappiness in the lives of people all around.

What has happened from the time Freud made his observation is that happiness is also considered as an 'offer', though it is an ephemeral one. This perception has resulted in a subtle shift in people's attitude according to which happiness ultimately boils down to an Insignia, an iPhone, a charming girlfriend, a date with Katrina Kaif or a Botox treatement. Unfortunately, Buddha had realised and propogated years ago that the next model is always out of stock in the present. Hence, one's happiness on the basis of his possession or prowess is bound to be overwhelmed in future. Thus, perennial unavailability leads to disenchantment which breeds discontenment and as they say- Only DESIRE remains.... I cannot fathom an unhappier situation.

Aamir Khan casts a spell with this latest Samsung brand flick - Next is What??? I think i may answer this ubiqutous question. NEXT is infact HAPPINESS. It just needs a subtle introspection and identification of priorities.
Service to parents may top the list of priorities. You might start realising the difference in contentment level between owning an Audi and washing dishes/clothes as a gesture of help for your 'Mom'.

Leaders - Dormant or Extinct ????

For me there are only two LEADERS : People who have led their organisation on the basis of their overarching vision or have directed the whole Indian simulacrum with their staunch effectuation.

Azim Premji and Mahatma Gandhi delineate these definitions of leaders who have redefined evolution and led by example. Leadership is one dicey quality which is not everyone's cup of tea but those who exhibit leadership skills are primarily those who reflect utmost clarity in their goals and objectives. Our country, unfortunately, cannot boast of leaders who have the ability to alter the prevalent dictates. Leadership is percieved to be overtly linked to the short-term dynamic linkages and this explains ten captains in any cricket team within our country. Morover, obeyance is probably miscontrued with servility and THIS spells doomsday to any voluntary team strucutre. Hence, when the mass attaches zilch importance to leaders appending the denigrating power equations riding various organisation/national strucutres, LEADERS are individuals who have, as i said earlier redefined 'evolution' of thought and generated 'value' for the whole/part of the nation.

Now that i get to see Mr. Premji at close quarters at Sarjapur HO, I yearn for an opportunity to have a quick chat with him some time. Maybe a few blanket statement subversive of his stance on the various loopholes along with some customised advicing would be icing on the cake. According to me, he falls under the Visionary category for having foreseen the business value of IT during times it was unheard of. The diversification in Wipro's business with IT being a major driver typifies the evolution to a vegetable oil company to an diversified major. Now that he has stressed on the importance of consulting in the coming years, I feel that i may be in the right place just at the right time (I digressed from a general thought process to a personalised conviction, of course all MEN are selfish !!!!).

I think the words in the brackets indicate my fickle mindset which does not remain focussed for a decent interval. Morover the comment about all men being selfish is totally out of context but i decided to go ahead with writing it as it would appeal to the few enshrouded readers of the pink fraternity (There must be an element for everybody in this piece).

Moving on and coming back to square one, i would end putting down words of extolment for Bapu as it is the fruits of his efforts, that we are relishing today (especially me in this wonderful Bangalore where everything seems to be in abundance EXCEPT sunlight). The father of the nation is certainly one who showcased unassailable leadership to drive the whole nation with simple yet effective dictates. He is the Leader of the Masses according to me, I cannot think of anybody else though.

How about me as a leader.....???? I need to figure out my brand positioning before i give any further thought in this regard. Kudos

Everything seems settled except that i feel like writing pale english

I know squarely that nobody reads my blogs... its transforming towards being a personal diary. The country needs to sustain its vigour and confidence at this moment and instill faith in the propinquty of the entire spectrum. Dark Knight is a phenomenal potrayal of the abstractions governing a mob psychology and the effective gadgets. Batman and Joker seems to the most realistic depiction of those non-supernatural combats.

How can i resist you?? How can i insist you?? How can i assist you???

Blogs and Widgets

Sometimes you try and attach a purpose and meaning to everything you do........ but there are occasions where you try and enact an entirely non-value add. However, deep within your innate self, you wish that these actions bear the most unexpected and encouraging fruits for yourself.

I am pretty confused person these days. One who is clear only about his professional work and caught in a quagmire when it comes to everything else. Definitely fate has its own ways of squaring things up..... but the way i'm being carried on two foot is something i am unanswerable towards. Be it CAT, Economic times, household responsibilities or any other event which i experience outside the Sarjapur Campus, everything seems to reflect the divine backing. This is because i find things happening at their own behest without my sincere efforts which i percieve are pivotal. Perhaps, i may be enjoying the stage in my life when everything is spoon-fed by the supernatural.
I may not be able to emulate two totalitasian personalities but i guess there is lot to be learnt in terms an eye for detail, the rightful brashness, the eye for analysis, the overwhelming assertiveness, the sense of humour, the indecisive aura. It is my strong feeling that a man evolves with his work and the access to various databases personify the beginning of an analytical evolution.

I have another weekend at my disposal to take memories which will help me the stabilise during the marooned moments next week. Its high time i start envisoning a long-term objective for myself. There are too many short-term goals which seems to play on each other's shoulders without really making it to the brain.

Love is in the air....... infact, it is only in the air and NONE inside -- Unknown
If i get three hours to cut a tree i will spend two hours sharpening my axe -- Abraham Lincoln
Uplifting yourself is sucess but uplifting others is significanct success.

Reviving .... Rejuvenating....MY Pristine Self !!!

Sometimes words are hard to find... especially when brevity, clarity are the dictates and wordiness, pomposity and cliches are not permitted. I think such a strictured environment brings the most able writer out an individual. Something which would show a FOG Index of 12-13, but would convey the intention in the best possible explanantion needing no annotations. I must say that a being a writer is one of the toughest accomplishments of life. It is something which if further enunciate when a person like Vasudev Murthy brands himself as a 'failed writer'.

The Global Research Center for Consulting (GRCC) has been framed and now forumulations regarding its Process Framework are on its way. The standardisation achieved with respect to the documents is simply amazing. Imagine a 'signature' ,which is of the most personal and innate nature, being standardised. Actually the stay over here makes me appreciate the higher thoughts or abstraction namely business value, business diagnosis, strategy and standardisation.

'Consulting' as a career sound appealing and in order to inculcate the expected qualities of an conman who constantly insults (con-sultant), i cannot help feeling that i may have made the best START. The levels of interaction I have had so farand the extent of confidence demonstrated on me as an Consultant have been phenomenal.

The only bone of contention is MBA>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>> I feel i should go to a Consulting BSchool rather than a general BSchool.