Happy Birthday dude.... Have a blast.
Probably the sole one liner which i trance forward as birthday wishes to one and all. So, the locution needs to common to both thy neighbour and thyselves.
Probably this approaching birthday made me wonder,why and how on earth does this day create so much excitement among the recipients???? a trait commonly or infact outrightly, observed in all of the anthropological genres (girls majorly) i have befriended. Is this really the day when you seat yourselves at the throne of felicity and expect others to pamper you, shower yourself with goodies and wishes alike??? Is this day deservant of the pompousness and grandiloquence which you ascribe it to???? Is this the only justified occasion to corroborate that you are indeed one special creation????
I must admit that i have been no exception to these flavouring when i was young. The start of December used to elevate me to the pinnacle of a virtual Happy Mountain which then chute with exponential speed as soon as the day was over. Being the shortest day of the year (22nd December) made only matters worse for me. I reminisce with acute nostalgia the days when my friends in colony used to come over during the party, and i stationed myself at the entrance of my house allowing only those with a gift. And then as i evolved/matured, (a polite way of saying that i degraded) i used to treat my friends in school in a disc/pub where everyone lost his senses as we only went to Oxygen or Delhi Devils (liquor free). (I am still deprived of the wonderful blessing on manking as concieved by smokers and alcoholics). However, contentment and propitiation are two distant attributes which i have always aimed to accomplish, but, they always seemed a further mile away with every passing birthday.
Last year, i had the blessed opportunity to spend my first birthday at college. I call the opportunity blessed not because i had my coterie around, but because i could use the day towards some authentically genuine service, which i guess, everyone is expected to undertake on days which are special to him. Its been quite a few years since i have been donation flour to the blind school near my house during the birthdays of people special in my life. However, last year after my major examination, i sped to Madhav orphange in Gwalior where i distributed apples and oranges to the kids. It was then that the feeling of contentment ebbed to the brim. Those smiles, those verbalisms, those countenance and those gratitudes enlightened me beyond expressions, beyond descriptions. Since i had a party planned back in coll, i had rush back and i was very repentant that i was compromising the real celebration for a societal celebration which neither redeems nor restores any unfeigned archetypes.
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I must realise that this year is a benchmark, one which marks a transition from an average college kid to an untested corporate resource. I have some very important goals for the future and i must pledge to pursue them with all sincerity and dedication. I must pay due cognisance to the fact that there will be distractions galore, both warranted and unwarranted. However, i must pervade through them with undeterred motivation. Also i must do away with the rashness which has been my perennial doom speller in the past. Just another moment of silence will help me silence the sceptical negativism.
Cheers to yet another completion of a successful year. May you march with austerity towards being a subservient force for your parents and an assertive force for the posterity.
Friday, December 21, 2007
Sunday, December 02, 2007
Turbulating Conundrum
Am in a majestic fix of vibrant sorts....
Committed the worst blunder of my life on Nov 18, but what set ME apart was that I was actually able to pull myself out of the gloom very early, to my surprise. Many would disagree, but the preparation certainly instilled within me an ATTITUDE. The one that i always lacked. I always seemed to cog my mind with those nebulous thoughts of negativities. I must admit that i am very lucky to be actually what i have positioned myself at Present, as. I have strong reservations about my Intelligent and emotional quotients. Though, trough of failure have been cyclical, they have been ephemeral . But i always seemed to brood over those, disturb myself to the heck and always felt like running towards oblivion. What set me apart this time around and hopefully would , in future, is the pace at which i pulled out myself from the web- the ever inciting web of gloom, misfortune, insecurity and forged thoughts.
The insouciance is nothing but serendipity but I enjoyed it to the hilt. It added a certain flavour to my outlook of looking at Nature for a second and forgetting/forgiving ALL. Though i must confess that the traits of a human do not allow me to sustain my nonchalance for long, and the peers (both internal and external) play their derogatory roles, I have begun to realise that the key to calmness and success lies in speedy extrication from the excoriating events.
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What if?????????????
You are a part of a menage where every alternate generations have mute and dumb childeren. Constrasting this misfortune is perhaps the fact that the girls in the lineage are excessively gorgeous, but alas no one prefers to marry them as the children born to them are definintive to be dumb and mute, or atleast.... have been so... for many generations.
A dumb and mute grandma/ grandpa, hale and hearty (not sure!!!) mom and dad, and once again the dumb and mute children. The conversation in their house was through various signals made using the face and the hands.
If you saw that for once, would you ever dare to bother others with your thrawting frustrations.
Not much to be written but certainly more to the mind.
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Selfless service to primarily one's parents and then the society are the key dictates towards sure shot happiness. However, the word "selfless" is the pons asinorum when it comes to an ambitioius mix of pride, arrogance and materialism like me. However, i just sincerely hope that I am able to support my parents without getting into this unwanted race of unending material conquest. Am happy with th realisation, but sustaining and reminding myself of the sole reason of my toils would be my test.
Wish i were able to share with you .... all my propitious incidents and turbulations alike.
But somewhere down the aisle... get tired of the hypocricies i dislike.
I lift myself all over again.... striving to rejuvenate myself to my pristing self.
Committed the worst blunder of my life on Nov 18, but what set ME apart was that I was actually able to pull myself out of the gloom very early, to my surprise. Many would disagree, but the preparation certainly instilled within me an ATTITUDE. The one that i always lacked. I always seemed to cog my mind with those nebulous thoughts of negativities. I must admit that i am very lucky to be actually what i have positioned myself at Present, as. I have strong reservations about my Intelligent and emotional quotients. Though, trough of failure have been cyclical, they have been ephemeral . But i always seemed to brood over those, disturb myself to the heck and always felt like running towards oblivion. What set me apart this time around and hopefully would , in future, is the pace at which i pulled out myself from the web- the ever inciting web of gloom, misfortune, insecurity and forged thoughts.
The insouciance is nothing but serendipity but I enjoyed it to the hilt. It added a certain flavour to my outlook of looking at Nature for a second and forgetting/forgiving ALL. Though i must confess that the traits of a human do not allow me to sustain my nonchalance for long, and the peers (both internal and external) play their derogatory roles, I have begun to realise that the key to calmness and success lies in speedy extrication from the excoriating events.
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What if?????????????
You are a part of a menage where every alternate generations have mute and dumb childeren. Constrasting this misfortune is perhaps the fact that the girls in the lineage are excessively gorgeous, but alas no one prefers to marry them as the children born to them are definintive to be dumb and mute, or atleast.... have been so... for many generations.
A dumb and mute grandma/ grandpa, hale and hearty (not sure!!!) mom and dad, and once again the dumb and mute children. The conversation in their house was through various signals made using the face and the hands.
If you saw that for once, would you ever dare to bother others with your thrawting frustrations.
Not much to be written but certainly more to the mind.
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Selfless service to primarily one's parents and then the society are the key dictates towards sure shot happiness. However, the word "selfless" is the pons asinorum when it comes to an ambitioius mix of pride, arrogance and materialism like me. However, i just sincerely hope that I am able to support my parents without getting into this unwanted race of unending material conquest. Am happy with th realisation, but sustaining and reminding myself of the sole reason of my toils would be my test.
Wish i were able to share with you .... all my propitious incidents and turbulations alike.
But somewhere down the aisle... get tired of the hypocricies i dislike.
I lift myself all over again.... striving to rejuvenate myself to my pristing self.
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